As I Am Meant To Be

I have not written about my meditation practice in detail yet, but it is a very integral part of my life. An exercise that has helped me through many moments of inertia, lifting me above the milieu a bit to see a broader perspective. Through my devotion to this craft I've been able to both savor the good and rake out the muck, curating a better life for me. Todays practice was focused on just that.

There's a point towards the end that I ask myself, or some wiser, more "tuned in" version of myself, if there is anything I need to know right now, if there is anything I need to understand in my life right now. Sometimes I hear nothing, sometimes I hear something days later, sometimes I hear immediately. Today was an experience of the immediate. My subconscious, now made conscious, reminded me of a scraggly little piece of paper with my hurried handwriting on it, the end product of an exercise I did back in 2007 with a friend who was just founding her life coaching company and wanted to practice her methods on me. The title of the exercise was "As I Am Meant To Be". I was given 5 minutes to draft my affirmations of who I am, my dreams of who I want to be.

Despite all of the moves since that winter afternoon some two years ago, I've found that piece of paper. I sit here with it on my bed, reading and evaluating. It's amazing that these thoughts and dreams still ring true, affirming to know that I am living much of this life, exciting to know that the rest is coming and soon ...

This person - me - is masterful at her creative craft - writing, dancing, communicating and connecting. This mastery comes from a solid, secure place within that knows her worth and easily and effortlessly portrays it and shares it with the world. This person remains confident, regardless of what external forces and opinions project. She is knowledgeable, well-traveled, naturally graceful in body + mind + spirit. She has the freedom to call many places home - NY, Spain/Europe, South America and places this current me hasn't dreamt up yet. Throughout her globetrotting and continuous path of learning and exposing herself to what this world has to offer, one thing remains constant - the safe, warm, assured place and home she has created on the inside - her heart and her soul. This woman loves and receives love. She is in a relationship that continues to flourish and nourish as time passes. Her partner supports her in her journey, building her up and taking pride and joy in seeing her burn bright. In return, she gives him the same. This woman is financially comfortable and has created a sanctuary of a living space full of material and spiritual comforts + sources of inspiration that support her journey. This woman never stops growing + learning. She keeps her mind, heart and arms open and basks in the light of constant discovery + love + happiness + wholeness. This woman is balanced.