Birthing The Beast

I haven't been able to write for weeks now. Not sure what's going on, probably the stress of not just having to look but really needing to find a job. My Stepmother told me at dinner tonight that I should take advantage of this time off to be creative, to craft something for myself that I truly love. And I have. I have for almost 6 months. But, as real life worries and their ominous shadows grow bigger and bigger, I find my creativity pool is drying up. And my self-criticism is growing, particularly with regard to my writing. There is many a half-baked blog post on my dashboard. Ideas I haven't been able to fully form, that are far from post-worthy in my opinion. And that just creates more anxiety and more criticism and, worst of all, stagnation. In an effort to birth the beast and move on, I have decided to free write and post tonight, whatever comes out. Here it is.